# 37. A lil' lost.

Ever had this period of time in your life, where you do not know who you are? You feel a little lost, a little confused, a twinge of frustration and a whole lot of desperation? You try every single way you can think of, being an extreme in the opposite ends of the personality charts, being what you think you are but yet ending up not being happy? You want to find who is the person you are deep down inside again, the very person you used to know a very long time ago, a person who somehow got lost in the storms of life.

I am currently in that position. I am not going to lie. I am hyper at days or I can just be totally no body at times, believe me, you wouldn't even notice my presence. I realised, I don't know who I am anymore. I used to be this vigorous, vibrant, happy-go-lucky girl not too long back. I used to have a strong stand in life and in lot of issues of life, usually the star in the room. Today, I tend to sly by the sidelines, looking at how others strut their thing and just living a normal yet boring life. I am what you can rather say- a fire which has always burned so brightly, that has been rather dim for a period of time now.

If you know what I am talking about I guess, what you are going through is similiar with me. Your firy passion has been rather dim and all it needs is a little starter to get you back on track. I've always remembered this from last year's varsity church camp. What God told me, it is still so real till this very day.

-"Let it all go, girl. I did not intend for you to live a life full with chains and burdens. I did not intend for you to fear and to miss out all the goodness and opportunities in life. I want the best for you. I want you to live happily. That is My plan for you. Stand up and move."

I may not know what are the issues in life that you are battling and I do not know what causes you to lose yourself. I for one, has given it much thought. I know the causes of my problems and now it all boils down to the point of whether am I brave enough to move forward. I guess, it is the same for you. You might already know what are the causes so move forward. Do not dwell and cry over your misfortunes. Do not live your future in the past. Do not be tied down and be afraid to live your life as who you are. Find the very person you are deep down inside and be that person, regardless of whether you think people might say stuffs or what it might cause you. Falling is okay, but it is the climbing up that matters.

Inspirations.