Saturday, February 27, 2010

# 56. Hope.

Hope. I have always been the girl who've always dream about my prince charming, coming to sweep me off my feet on his pure-white beautiful horse. I've always been the girl who've believed that no matter how ugly the world has become, beauty will never stop growing out from every tiny corner imaginable. I've always believed that even when the sun sets every dusk, the sun is just waiting patiently to rise the very next dawn. I've always believed that despite every fall in life, its only to make us stronger, a lesson to learn from. I've always believed that life is always beautiful and meaningful. I've always believed that life is about the journey and not the destination. I've always believed that life is about exploring and learning. I've always believed in the goodness of life. I've always believed that life is not about self but its always about the lives we've touched. I've always believed that life is about reaching out for our dreams and making it a reality. I've always believed that the difference between dreams and reality is only doing it. I've always believed that no matter what, we should not lose our integrity in life, we should not lose ourselves. I've always believed that there is a bigger plan out there, set by God, for me. I've always believed.

Yes, you are right. I don't always feel so hopeful. I'm not perfect. I'm not bulletproof. I'm afterall, only human. Life isn't always beautiful, life isn't always smooth sailing. Life is hard, some say, Lifes' a bitch. Yes, it really is. But whatever it is, I think, we should never lose hope. Hope keeps us going in life. Hope is what keeps things pure and true. Hope is what gives us strength to push and to carry on. Do not let anyone or anything in life take that away from you. I've recently heard a friend of mine quote. A quote which I find true.

"When we long for life without difficulties, be reminded that oaks grow strong in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure. So when life is hard, we are actually diamonds in the making. Stay strong people"- Shas Fung. 260210.
So stay strong and remember, life is after all, all about hope, lets not give that up just yet.


Monday, February 22, 2010

# 55. beyond words.

a firm handshake.
its nice to meet you.
hand in hand.
we will strive together.
a smile.
a kiss on the forehead.
its gonna be alright.
a strong arm around your shoulder.
you are never alone.
a hug.
you are loved.

all these little gestures speaks louder than words.
its carries something wonderful that is simply indescribable.
it carries love.


Thursday, February 18, 2010

# 54. something as little as "like".

I read a post by a friend, Javad, about how "liking" or "disliking" someone can actually make a big impact on how you feel and how u perceive things. He got me thinking, how true is it that if you have a sense of liking towards a person, you will tend to see things less seriously, and you wouldn't matter much but if another person, whom you have disliking for, does the same thing, it would most probably anger and wrong you. For example, if a close friend of yours tells you that you've gained weight, you would most probably thank her for telling you so that you can start working that few extra pounds off. But on the other hand, if a foe of yours come telling you the exact same thing, what would your reaction be? You're most probably ready to fight with your fist up in the air.

I personally think that it is true. We humans ain't perfect and I think, thats how humans are. We have our animal instincts and we are emotional beings. As rational as we are, I'm pretty sure that most of our life-related decisions are based on our feelings. Even when we were just babies, we've learnt to cry or even distance away from things and people who we dislike and who have wronged us. I guess, thats the survival instinct that we have deep down inside everyone of us, including you and me. We are all emotional beings who are able to rationalize. Whether or not you realise, the way we perceive the world depends on how we actually feel towards it. So yeah, some people might think that first impression doesn't matter much, the truth is, it does. Something as little as "like" can make a huge difference.


Sunday, February 14, 2010

# 53. 新年快乐, 恭喜发财.

Happy Chinese New Year, Gong Xi Fa Chai.
Yes. I know. You guys must be thinking, how do I know how to write the chinese words above. I admit, I cheated. I Google translated. =P Anyhow, this is just a post to wish you readers out there. I will, after the 15 days of CNY, post up all the pictures in this post. But as for now, just bare with me because I just want to wish you and your family a very good new year and God bless you guys out there. =) Take good care of your health. Do not be greedy with those bakkuas and the cny cookies and also, HUAT AH!


Friday, February 12, 2010

# 52. CNY.

I've never really been eagerly waiting for Chinese New Year to come for a very very long time now. I remember when I used to be a little girl, I used to get so happy to doll up on the very first day of CNY, being all pretty and clean, big huge smile my face, so eager to meet up with my cousins and relatives from a far, fireworks, yee sang, gambling sessions, angpaus, visitations, bak kua, new clothes, cookies, mandarin oranges and as well as the yearly, lion dance.

Yes, this year, I do hope that things will be like how it used to be when we were all little. How all the family members gather around, catchup and just have a great time apart from our busy lives. How I wish that my brother can be back here with us to celebrate CNY together. And I am now still stranded in Kampar, all alone. I'm longing to go back home right this instance. I miss the smell of CNY. I miss home.


Thursday, February 11, 2010

# 51. Untitled.

Guy, Girl, Friends, Closefriends, Bestfriends, Hypocrites, Backstabbers, Humans. Tell me exactly what are they? People who you share a great deal of ups and downs together? Or just people who leech out of you? Smiling widely and laughing together when you are happy, but never to be seen when you are at your lowest point of life? People who you help with your genuine heart, only to turn back on you and stab you, not once, but again and again, in the back when you aren't aware of it? People who you care for and is always there for them, but never to know and to care about your pain. People who only cares about themselves, who would do anything, including hurting anyone, just to simply have a laugh. People who you thought you'll always have to depend on, who you have to pull you out from a deep blackhole, will only stand there watching how you're being sucked in further and not lift a finger. People who thinks so highly upon themselves, acting as though they know you deep from within, are spreading rumors which are nothing but lies, pulling you down further, telling you no matter how you give your heart out, no one understands. People who are such hypocrites, who can put a smile so wide when they face you but as soon as you turn, their true colours show. People who I am tired of. People who I am scared of. People who I am disappointed with. People who've given me enough reason to stop trying.


Friday, February 5, 2010

# 50. Trust.

Never an easy word.
Never comes with just a blink.
Never to be tempered with.
Never to be given out fully.
Never easily regained.
Never will find a trustee, worthy.
Never to be taken lightly.
Never easily built.
Never to be broken.
Do not regret when you've broken one's trust.
Think twice.